I took the plunge!

... and started a new blog.

You can now find my journey over at walking with vision, come visit and walk with me for a while =)

xo

What happened?

Man, I used to love blogging.
And sometimes I have some really great thoughts I want to share on my blog!
... but for some reason it doesn't happen.

Actually I think that reason has to do with the previous post... I don't think this blog is exactly what I want anymore but because I don't know how I'd prefer it to be, I just leave it as it is and avoid blogging.

I wonder how I'm going to change this?

Blogging decision...

So, I'm starting up my own business with a good friend and fellow life coach.
I'm wondering if I should continue to blog here, or if it would be better if I started a new blog that was linked to our business website...
And if I started a new blog, do I stay with Blogger or set up something else...

I've been thinking of things I want to blog about and I keep putting it off because I want to get this right. Gah.

Your career/calling

"Research shows that people spend less than thirty hours over their entire lifetime thinking about and researching their career choices. If you begin work at twenty years of age, work forty hours per week, and retire at sixty-five, you will have worked 93,600 hours in a job that may not have been your Calling."

I don't remember where I found this but GOSH let's do things differently!

Tell me

Shiny-eyed

I am excited about so many things right now!
Big changes are happening in my life and I am so ready for them. New home, new relationship, new business, new study, new friendships, new, new, shiny and new.
I feel like my life is being blown wide open and I can see for miles. I feel wide-eyed and open-hearted.
Sometimes it's scary... but I so want this, all of this.
It's what I've asked for, quested for... and it's coming, it's happening! Wooowwwwwwwww

Come, yet again

Come, come, whoever you are.

Wanderer, worshipper, lover of living, it doesn't matter.

Ours is not a caravan of despair.

Come even if you have broken your vow a thousand times,

Come, yet again, come, come.

-Rumi

Good / Interesting things that happened today

~I didn't buy a Boost juice
~When I was feeling like shit, I was honest with myself about what was really going on underneath that, instead of just staying angry at surface stuff (it was still uncomfortable)
~I talked to a college friend about how I was feeling and she helped me understand what was going on for me
~My boy came into work to check I was doing ok and gave me awesome hugs
~I didn't drink a V
~I got heaps of great hugs from Colette at work
~I had good chats with Colette and Sal at work
~I organised to get my shifts covered next week so I have a whole week off!
~I saw a band play outside Westfield and the singer was cute and had awesome orange hair
~I bought veggies after work to cook a good dinner
~I went to Lane Cove National Park after work and listened to my ipod while walking by the river, humming along and collecting feathers
~I collected a million AWESOME feathers! Today's stash was good.
~I saw a rabbit at the Park
~I accidentally stayed there past 7pm so my car was locked in. This turned out to be fine because I got to walk home
~I've said that I want more movement in my life, and my body certainly got a workout on my walk home
~I collected more feathers on my walk home
~I watched the sunset on my walk home
~I saw a rainbow on my walk home
~Even though I realised I left my house keys at work my housemate was home so I got to waltz straight in the door
~Turns out I was then too exhausted to eat junk food so I cooked a good dinner (logical at the time)
~I drank juice instead of wine (I'd been planning wine all day)
~And now I'm about to play Donkey Kong on the Super Nintendo.

Crazy day

all i did was listen

I am loving this blog.


I am so full of love and beauty and inspiration I just can't do anything today. There are lots of things I need to get done but I just want to hold this amazing feeling inside, honour and nurture it. That seems more important than assignments.

I want to cry
I want to lie out in the sun
I want to run
I want to read
I want to draw
I want to write
I want to make a dreamcatcher
I want to sing
I want to do everything and nothing
I want to burst open

My heart wants to burst open

There is more
there is more

The Artist's Creed

Michael, by Susan Seddon Boulet

I believe I am worth the time it takes to create
whatever I feel called to create.

I believe that my work is worthy of its own space,
which is worthy of the name Sacred.

I believe that, when I enter this space, I have the right
to work in silence, uninterrupted, for as long as I choose.

I believe that the moment I open myself to the gifts of the Muse,
I open myself to the Source of All Creation
and become One with the Mother of Life Itself.

I believe that my work is joyful, useful, and constantly changing,
flowing through me like a river with no beginning and no end.

I believe that what it is I am called to do
will make itself known when I have made myself ready.

I believe that the time I spend creating my art
is as precious as the time I spend giving to others.

I believe that what truly matters in the making of art is
not what the final piece looks like or sounds like,
not what it is worth or not worth, but what newness gets added
to the universe in the process of the piece itself becoming.

I believe that I am not alone in my attempts to create,
and that once I begin the work, settle into the strangeness,
the words will take shape, the form find life, and the spirit take flight.

I believe that as the Muse gives to me,
so does she deserve from me:
faith, mindfulness, and enduring commitment.

Jan Phillips
Marry Your Muse

Silent solitude

"In silent solitude
I float out
flowing
in slowest
motion
serene daughter
of my
deepest self"

From the book The Creative Journal by Lucia Capacchione

Things that have meant something to me today

~Even though things feel meaningless right now, there's a part of me that knows it's only temporary, and part of a bigger picture.

~Cancelling the session with my client today so I can have time and space to look after myself,

~THEN, receiving a caring email from her with a quote that is so spot on.

~Visiting a college friend at work just to let her know where I'm at, and having her treat me to a dandelion tea and hot chocolate.

~Instead of wallowing with junk food, I came home and made myself a salad wrap and chai.

~Thinking of the pretty white feather I found the other day.

~Receiving a little message from an old work friend, just to say hi and check that I'm doing ok.

"Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world. Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before. Let yourself take you where you long to be... Close your eyes, let your spirit soar and you will live as you've never lived before."

This is a scary place to be. I don't know how to do things a new way. But I know I don't want to do it the old way anymore. Hence the emptiness.

Sweet Darkness

When your eyes are tired
the world is tired also.

When your vision has gone
no part of the world can find you.

Time to go into the dark
where the night has eyes
to recognize its own.

there you can be sure
you are not beyond love.

The dark will be your womb
tonight.

The night will give you a horizon
further than you can see.

You must learn one thing.
The world was meant to be free in.

Give up all the other worlds
except the one to which you belong.

Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet
confinement of your aloneness
to learn

anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive

is too small for you.

-David Whyte

The Four Agreements

The Four Agreements, by Don Miguel Ruiz

"To be Toltec is a way of life. A Toltec becomes wise, becomes wild, and becomes free again."

Be impeccable with your word.
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.

Don't take anything personally.
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.

Don't make assumptions.
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and drama.

Always do your best.
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgement, self-abuse, and regret.

Best Things Today

- The smell of rain out my car window driving home from the Blue Mountains

- This photo of a friend:

CAUTION! Breakdancers.

Do what makes you come alive

“Don’t ask what the world needs.
Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it.
Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

-Howard Thurman

Something big is coming

Pambula Beach

Love and light

Hmm... photo makes it look much messier than it actually is. And it didn't pick up the colour properly. I will work on capturing it more accurately next time... practice practice

Drawing of the day