Things that have meant something to me today

~Even though things feel meaningless right now, there's a part of me that knows it's only temporary, and part of a bigger picture.

~Cancelling the session with my client today so I can have time and space to look after myself,

~THEN, receiving a caring email from her with a quote that is so spot on.

~Visiting a college friend at work just to let her know where I'm at, and having her treat me to a dandelion tea and hot chocolate.

~Instead of wallowing with junk food, I came home and made myself a salad wrap and chai.

~Thinking of the pretty white feather I found the other day.

~Receiving a little message from an old work friend, just to say hi and check that I'm doing ok.

"Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world. Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before. Let yourself take you where you long to be... Close your eyes, let your spirit soar and you will live as you've never lived before."

This is a scary place to be. I don't know how to do things a new way. But I know I don't want to do it the old way anymore. Hence the emptiness.

Sweet Darkness

When your eyes are tired
the world is tired also.

When your vision has gone
no part of the world can find you.

Time to go into the dark
where the night has eyes
to recognize its own.

there you can be sure
you are not beyond love.

The dark will be your womb
tonight.

The night will give you a horizon
further than you can see.

You must learn one thing.
The world was meant to be free in.

Give up all the other worlds
except the one to which you belong.

Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet
confinement of your aloneness
to learn

anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive

is too small for you.

-David Whyte

The Four Agreements

The Four Agreements, by Don Miguel Ruiz

"To be Toltec is a way of life. A Toltec becomes wise, becomes wild, and becomes free again."

Be impeccable with your word.
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.

Don't take anything personally.
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.

Don't make assumptions.
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and drama.

Always do your best.
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgement, self-abuse, and regret.

Best Things Today

- The smell of rain out my car window driving home from the Blue Mountains

- This photo of a friend:

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